Last night we went to
It was my first ritual in a very, very long time–I’ve spent a lot of time as a solitary. I think the last public ritual I attended was something like 16 years ago.
A chime definitely went off in my soul somewhere. I miss this. I don’t know anyone who has a regular group, much less anyone I know well enough to feel comfortable with, but I miss it nonetheless…I have been feeling somewhat spiritually disconnected for a while now. For a time, we even were attending the local Episcopal church, which was close enough to the high ritual of my Irish Catholic childhood for me to feel…something, I guess. It didn’t pan out. In about 4 months, I reached the point where the same old things were pissing me off, and confirmed for me that I’m not remotely Christian.
The solitary pagan thing is tough, though. Part of what religion provides is a sense of spiritual community, which you just don’t get as a solitary.
Ah well. Deep thoughts.
Back to work. (This is a short week, so I’ve got a bunch to do)
going to SoCal?
Nope. I’m no longer actively hunting freelance work on print projects, so there really isn’t any point, outside of just hanging out….which I can’t really afford to do in December.
There are times when I miss truly feeling like I believe in something. I am so far removed from it now, that I am not sure I believe in anything anymore. You and Elissa mentioning this has made me a bit nostalgic at the very least. Just in case you don’t know…do you guys have a unitarian church around? Since you are a college town, I supposed it to be likely. Most of my pagan friends end up there for a focus and center. They even have an official pagan sub-group, CUUPS (http://www.cuups.org/). There are times when I think about doing this myself, as I think it may be hard for Clark to be nothing in the south. Though this will be less of a problem if we do make it back into the city. However, Theron is 100% against this so I don’t mention it anymore.
Okay, they don’t have a group in Kansas. Damn.
We do have a Unitarian church, though. I’ve thought about checking it out.